As a fourth grader, I was living in D.C. while my superhero parents were working on my dad's medical degree. I say "they" rather than "he" because it was truly a team effort. I'm sure if you're a single guy, you can easily put down roots in a library, never moving again until that day you're handed a diploma. As a medical student with a wife, and not one child, but also a set of twins, it's impossible to complete this herculean task without a willing partner.
Still, my parents made it through those grueling years before we were really old enough to be embarrassed by hand me downs and few changes of clothes. Entertainment was anything that was free, and so we spent a lot of time on the wooded hill behind our rental house, growing our memories from the fertile soil of pretend.
I devoured books. Painfully shy, I relied on them to function socially in the fiction worlds in ways I simply could not in the real one. I think we can all admit that we are all a little nuts, and most of us keep that carefully hidden in the deep inner folds our minds. A writer's mind, however, finds itself splattered without reservation upon a page, and, for better or worse, twisted writer's minds were the playgrounds where I grew up. With my parents so preoccupied with the business of preparing for a career, there wasn't much supervision for the books I read. I found myself reading
Pet Cemetery, fascinated by the concept of zombie dogs. I imagined roadkill running around on broken limbs and matted coats. I was horrified, yet deliciously intrigued by the idea.
Yesterday I started reading
On writing: A Memoir of the Craft, written by that far less than homicidal author than childhood me would have expected, Stephen King. The intention of the book is not to do an autobiography but to teach about the craft of being a fiction writer. A great in the fiction world wants to teach something? Yes, please!
It has been an utterly fascinating, brutally honest read, and one I highly recommend for aspiring writers. I don't recommend it based on my amazing success and therefore drawing on my large deposits of credibility, but rather because it makes being successful feel like an attainable goal. He made many mistakes, including tossing out the first four pages of his first great book,
Carrie, only to be fished out that circular file by his wiser half to change their lives forever.
I stopped thinking about Mr. King's books sometime in the sixth grade, so the image of the hammer wielding psychopath curled over a typewriter was still there, still etched in my little girl imagination. The grown up in me would never think such an absurd thing, yet I found myself a little surprised at how normal an upbringing and life he's led, and, dare I say it, enough like mine to give me pause.
So far what I've gotten out of this book is as follows:
1. Chucking out a perfectly good book, only to go back to it later is normal. My current book has already experienced this fate - actually completely trashing it's entire rendition two years ago. Maybe rewriting it wasn't a bad idea after all.
2. Your support system is crucial. My husband has never doubted me. In my moments of self-doubt, he becomes very seriously put out, making forceful rules about the expressions of negativity I am not allowed to say now or ever again concerning myself or my work. He insists it's in the contract, but I don't recall that particular thing anywhere on the marriage license.
3. It's totally normal to have no idea where your ideas come from, and just as normal to have to wait for them to show up in whatever volume they see fit. This explains why while really busy editing - which I hate - a completely new and unrelated book to my current series has been harassing me for the last two months. I finally have given in, becoming the shorthand secretary to the Muse until I have the time to actually flesh out my notes into something real - occasionally sneaking in a page or two while I really should be paying more attention in my Finance class. Oh, grad school...how tired I already am of you...
My favorite quote from the book?
"Writing is a lonely job. Having someone who believes in you makes a lot of difference. They don't have to make speeches. Just believing is usually enough."
I have the support and the ideas. According to Mr. King, I'll be just fine.